Tuesday’s [Not So] Titillating Tally   

1. Depression sucks. I let the holidays get me down quite a bit during the last two weeks of December. I tend to curl myself up into a small ball at the very back of my shell during these periods so the only clue you would have had was my lack of daily posts. Logically there was no good reason for my moodiness and I had no desire to share it with anyone else during the holidays. But, it has passed and it’s a new year and there’s no reason I should be feeling depressed so I’m not anymore and I’m determined to stay positive.

2. It’s a numbers game. I took 32 hours of leave during the holidays. It seems like a lot but I just got my new Leave and Pay Exceptions Report and I still have 369.95 hours of annual leave and 367 hours of sick time. WTF? You realize, of course, that I could never use all of that. Ever. (Please, Universe, let’s not consider that a challenge.) I can’t even get paid for all that time if I leave now. That sucks. The point here isn’t to brag about how much time I have (mostly because I have it due to plain stupidity on my part). No, the point is to remind you to use your time. Don’t let it build up to the point where you will actually lose something you’ve earned when you decide to leave that company.

3. It’s an M&M World. In Orlando. Now, I buy a lot of M&Ms. When I went to Las Vegas back in June, I dragged D with me to M&M’s World because it was the only M&M store in the world. I was appropriately awed by it and in love. More recently I purchased custom printed M&M’s from their site… two different batches ([info]schnappycat: I have the Sheriff Lamb M&M’s now and, oh, TEH LOVE!) and, still, the only store listed was the one in Las Vegas. Imagine my surprise when I happened to catch sight of a M&M’s World bag while at the Florida Mall with Doug and Greg last week. Hmmm. Eventually our travels took us right by the actual store and OMG! These stores should be outlawed. I have no money so nothing was purchased but, oh, the temptation.

4. California Dreamin’. You know what’s funny? I’ve never had any desire to visit, much less move to, CA and now? I am totally jealous of everyone on my f-list in CA. Ok, so I’m mostly just jealous of those my f-list who live close to others on their f-list. However, my sudden desire to be on the West Coast is easily explained by the fact that several of the people I wish I lived close enough to hang out with live in Cali. Too bad I feel all up in the air about my profession at the moment and, as result, don’t feel secure enough in my abilities to actually look at/for jobs on the West Coast.

5. Dude. Wash is coming to FX2006. Oh, yeah, and River too. Hee. I need to call up Rob and see if he’s interested. He’s not a big fan event type of person but Hugo and Alan and Summer? Who can resist that? I was just bitching to myself about how O-Town (or, FL really) never gets any of the Serenity people so I probably owe it to my bitchy self to go see ‘em, huh? It just sucks that it always happens on the weekend of HP and Cam’s birthdays when I’m busy making cakes all weekend. Damn cake business. Plus, how the heck am I gonna get to Tampa to see Wicked with all these other things mucking up the works?

6. Black Raspberry Vanilla. I could just roll my whole body in this scent. Conveniently, I have bought just about every incarnation of it from Bath & Body Works so I can pretty much do that, if I want. ‘Tis Heaven for me. My two favorite scents rolled into one sweet tarty product. Score!

7. Hoodies and VM. My favorite Christmas present to myself has to be this hoodie that I bought at Ron Jon’s on Christmas Eve. Mine is brown, though, a deep chocolate brown. And to prove that I can make everything about Veronica Mars, it totally makes me think about Logan every time I wear it. There’s just something about the combo of the browns and the greens and oranges in the artwork that have a very Logan-y feel. Luckily, until yesterday, it’s been chilly enough for me to wear it regularly without looking like a hoodie obsessed freak. Warning: The next thought is only tangentially related to this one. There was something else that kept making me think about VM the other day but I can’t remember what it was now and it’s driving me crazy. Dammit.

8. Zip it. Holy Mother of God. There are things I want to talk about but can’t and I find that extremely frustrating. Maybe if I had sent my Christmas presents out on time this year everyone would have them by now and I could discuss at will but I didn’t and I can’t. Instead you get incredibly annoying and vague and cryptic remarks like these from me.

9. Austin is a go. I’ve seriously debated going off and on for the past two weeks. See that depression thing from #1, plus the feeling all nervous about not knowing anyone and the current money issues. However, I’ve decided to suck it up and do something different for once. Plus, see #4 and how I’ll actually get to meet a few of those people and then maybe I won’t be as jealous (but, quite possibly, even more). It’s a vicious cycle, ya know?

10. Crap I forgot I wanted to say but remembered at the last minute and now must come up with a number 11 as well because I hate ending on even numbers. Ha. Over the holidays people were doing this phone number meme. Is anyone still doing that? Not answering unknown numbers? I meant to get in on it but then I was all bummed and couldn’t convince myself to get over my phobias to join in on it. Also, does anyone have a copy of Splitsville’s cover of I’ll Never Fall In Love Again? It’s on the Get Over It soundtrack but that’s on back order so I won’t be receiving my copy for who knows how long. Anyone? Bueller? Bueller? Bueller? I would love you forever and ever.

11. And……. I’m back and I’ve brought my long rambling posts with me. This is way too long and deserves a cut but I’m being lazy.

11 Responses to “Tuesday’s [Not So] Titillating Tally”

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    schnappycat says:

    M&Ms! Yay! I can’t wait. I’m so glad you are coming to Austin. And I don’t live near anyone on my flist either. Although I have met a good number of them.

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    calturner says:

    Rae! It’s so good to hear from you. Sorry you’ve been feeling down. Hopefully the start of a new year is just what you need!

    FX2006 sounds like it could be fun. I wish I could go with you! I’ve not heard of *anything* that’s been arranged in the UK yet, but I’m hoping James will do something, and maybe some of the Serenity cast. I’m determined to attend if they do! :)


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    keyser7soze says:

    Yay for Austin! I don’t know anyone either but I think things will change quickly when we get down there. I think it should be fine.

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    harper47 says:

    Big huggles over number 1 – I missed you.

    Still – extreme jealousy over going to Austin. I know you’ll have a blast.

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    raelee says:

    I have a bag on my desk and I want to open them so much but I’m resisting the lure of yummy Sheriff Lamb.

    I’m glad I’m coming too. Most of my concerns were about travel expenses and time off but I’ve cleared both up now so I’m ignoring my nervousness about the rest.

    I have met several of the people on my f-list and that’s what makes it harder I think. I love my offline friends dearly but sometimes I wish I had people who were more into the things I’m into to hang out with.

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    raelee says:

    Cal! No need to be sorry, just your typical up and downs I suppose. :)

    I actually enjoy FX just for the toy collectibles and comics. It’s very rare that they get guests I actually want to see so imagine my astonishment that actual people I care about are going to be there! I certainly hope they do something in your neck of the woods too so you can attend and enjoy.


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    raelee says:

    Oh I’m sure it will. In the end there will probably be too many people and not enough time to spend ample time with everyone. At least, that’s what I hope happens.

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    raelee says:

    Thanks :) I missed you too. I have been lurking and reading but you know how that goes.

    Heh. Don’t be jealous! Just think of how you don’t have to go through that awkward meeting stage of meeting everyone for the first time. ;) I hope you are right about the blast part, though.

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    cara_leigh9 says:

    Depression does suck.

    *hugs you*

    Glad you’re feeling better now. I’m so excited about you going to Austin and also a bit envious.

    I wish Brad and I had some money saved because April 19th is going to be our 15th year anniversary and I’ve love to got to Orlando and maybe visit you and Rob.

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    zimshan says:

    Aww, Rae, I missed your rambling posts. Glad you’re feelin’ better now. And that you’re still going to Austin. It’ll totally be worth it. BTW, were you able to find roommates to split the room with? Sorry I didn’t get to respond before. I was in limbo for awhile of whether I was getting a couch to crash on or not so I wasn’t really able to say…

    Alan and Summer in Orlando? Oh you should definitely go! When will that ever happen again? Wish I was in Orlando. Or Cali, where all these things are. I’ve already given up on the thought of them ever visiting NC.

    And yes, I’m convinced, Black Raspberry Vanilla IS the best scent ever created. :D

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    cdn_tvaddict says:

    *hugs and hugs* Just for being awesome you! And coming back to post… what’s a girl to read while sick and on holidays??? ;) Sorry to hear you were blue. *more hugs*

    I’ve been dying to find out if you were going to see River and the dead guy at FX. LUCKY! I wanna come. :)

    Love the hoodie. :)