Hello 30 minutes of sleep…   

I think I’m on crack and I just don’t know it. Why else would I stay up ALL night watching the BB5 feeds? That is insanity. This addiction needs to stop but, if things continue on this route, I’ll be up every night afraid that I’m going ot miss something important. Like last night, for instance, if I hadn’t stayed up I totally would have missed

That was freakin’ beautiful!! Drew called that boy out and told him where he could shove his BS. I was losing faith in Drew. I really want to like him but, if he didn’t stand up for himself, I was bailing on the Drew-ship. So, when Karen and Marv got him all riled up last night and he was talking shit, I knew it was ON! Then Jase being as a$$ about Holly and Scott AGAIN, well that was his downfall last night. Scott had shut down Drew’s talk of putting Holly out until Jase went off on him a second time in the BY. Then Jase saying Drew doesn’t have the balls to put out A, that was it. He finally said to Drew’s face what Drew knew he was saying behind his back and gave Drew the push he needed. :happy sigh: Jase needed to be smacked down a little..

Now, I do feel bad for Holly. Don’t get me wrong, I want her gone because I’m tired of the Jase and Holly show. It’s a lil’ overboard. Makes me wonder if this will make Jase stronger because, right now, he’s often distracted by Holly so he’s not focused on the game all the time. On the other hand, she was his co-conspirator without even really knowing it. He won’t have as much info or ammo once she’s gone.

I feel like I should explain something… I don’t like Holly. Or, at least, I don’t like the Holly I’ve seen in the house. It’s possible that she’s not quite the ditz she is in the house or that she’s not as high-maintenance/self-centered as she is in the house. However, I’m betting what we see is what we get with Holly. She seems fairly sincere to me. I don’t even think she’s aware of all the crap she starts with her nagging and whining. She’s focused on herself so she doesn’t notice the domino effect she has on things around her.

Holly is NOT a horrible person. She’s just tiring. I have very few friend like Holly (meaning someone who is self-centered and is always worried that people don’t like her or are talking about her) because you have to really work at being friends with them. It doesn’t matter how much you like or love them, after a while the constant ego stroking and calming of paranoia  puts so much pressure on the friendship that you struggle to maintain it all the time. Perhaps it is just me. I don’t do ego stroking. I love my friends but I can’t constantly be assuring them that I’m not talking bad about them or that I like them.

Hmm, I think I’m just a bitch is all. This is probably why I actually like Diane more than Holly. I would have had the same reaction to Holly that Di did and I wouldn’t have hid it as long or as well as she did. I can’t hide it when I don’t like people. You can totally tell from my body language and facial expressions when around that person. On the other hand, I would have been able to tell Holly exactly what she does in the house, regardless of whether she does it intentionally or unintentionally. (Oh, and I grew up with military men who used intimidation tactics all the time, so I’d have gone off on Jase and Scott long ago. Which, is why I’d have been evicted the first week! Hehehe. I’m getting distracted.)

What I really was getting at is that, if Holly wasn’t with Jase, I probably would have been able to put up with her in the game. She does stir up things and, as an individual, she would have been an interesting player. However, her hiding behind Jase’s back and the way they attack people has GOT TO STOP. So, while I may not like Holly on a personal level, I have to say that I wish it were Jase going and not her. And, with Jase playing her like he is, I will totally feel bad for her if this vote plan pulls through and she is blind-sided by the vote. I don’t think she’ll be surprised at the time but, until it happens, she’ll be freaking and not really believe it.

But… above all, this is BB and today is a new day. The producers better get these guys into the DR for voting the minute they wake up or we’ll be in for another frenzy trying to keep up with the changing tides in the house. I don’t think I can handle the uncertainity anymore. I just want Thurs to be here and their votes revealed!

4 Responses to “Hello 30 minutes of sleep…”

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    calturner says:

    You sound like me, Rae. The hours I’ve spent watching the UK BB5 is ridiculous! The night of “The Big Fight”, I was awake nearly all night. We’re a good pair together! ;)

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    raelee says:

    Yes we do! I wish we could watch ‘em together… lol, I can just picture us now!

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    cara_leigh9 says:

    Okay, you two have convinced me NOT to check this out. I already have an obsessive personality, so I definitely would not get any sleep. LOL!


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    sunflowr says:

    I’m watching Drew and Adria sleep. ;p This is when I know I DEF need a life!! ;D